there's a good kind of thing<
and an insane kind of thing
when I'm around you..
I don't need to take a pill to fix what you do.
cauise I love what you do!
why can't you come?
I'm not ill, and I don't need to take
a pill to fix what you do.
cause I love what you do.
He's just a boy, and I'm a boy.
he's an emo kid.
I want him.
I told him..
but he's to FAR away.
he's got a pretty face, but no feelings to people.
he's my center of attenmtion:
I just wanna kiss him.
and ask him to gimme me more.
and let you know how much I love you.
you get me to a crazy possesion.
you keep on rochin'
NOthing seems to be the way thet it used tyo.
everything seems shallow.
tell me why..
and that would help to someday understand.
someday I know I will finally have you.
but I want these answers now, before
I reach the bottom.
someday I dream of you and me
to be true.
like a grain at the beach.
like a star in the sky, they
are to many to count.
that's what I'm to you.
you're the one who looks right throught me,
and then you tell me that you know me.
but for you, I'm invisible..
It's so easy, to pretend
you're lost..
but, do you really know who I am?
Do you see me now?
but I still love you..
that's the worst part..
cause, when you look me in the eyes,
you tell me that you love me
and everuthing's alright.
when you're right here by my side..
I'm in my paradise.
cause you're the one who makes my darkness dissapear.
I find my happyness when you're
next to me.
or when I see you..
but also I remember what you did to me.
it lookis like we're dead.
you don't talk to me anymorre..
was it something I did?
was it something you said?
you were all the things I thought I knew..
I thought that we coul be..
you were my ALL..
but all this time you were pretending.
all the things you hide from me.
all the shit that you do
made me fly..
all of the memopries so close to me, just fade away.
however..
It's nice to know that you were there.
thanks for acting like you cared.
and making me feel like the only one..
it's nioce to know we had it all..
thanks for all..
and for making me know we were over..
I'll be fine..
crying to myself..
cause I don't belong here..
loving you so hard perhaps you're loving someone else.
but, don't try to understand..
cause you used to tell me " I love you"
but you love her more than me..
please don't tell more lies..
I know them all..by now.
I'm stupid..
loving you even when you're not even pretending of loving me..
don't think that you're charm, just because of our past..
get out of my head..
Did you think that I was gonna give it all to you?
and cry..?
don't try to tell me what to do..
don't try to make me live this lie..
but don't go..
I want you at least as a friend..
what am I saying..
I could never be just your friend..
but now I now who you really are..
now tell me, without the mask where will you hide?
I know the truth now..
I know the kind of guy that you are..
you don't know how you've betrayed me..
I thought your feelings were real..
congratulations, I beleived your lie..
but I don't wanna lock me inside..
I just want to forget what it feels loving you..
perhaps I don't want to let you go..
I can't hold to me, I wonder what's
wrong with me..
I want you with me, but I don't want to fall in your lies.
can't breake free, until you let me go.
if you comeback, I'll forgive you after all..
cause, anything it's better than to be alone..
seems like it was yesterday we talked the last time..
you told me how much you love me..
and now, after six painful weeks without you,
I drained these words from down deep my heart,
to say how much I miss you.
wpuld you help me understand?
do you still love me..?
these doubts are now hurting me so much..
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything..
now I hurt myself..
I know I always let you have all the power..
it's like you're a demon I can't face down..
it's like you're a leech sucking the life from me..
and I relize I'll never quit to you..
it's like I can't breath..
like I can't think, without you interrupting me
in my thought, in my dreams..
It's like I'm giving up slowly..
I know these voices in my head are mine alone..
telling me to love you
more and more every single day.
I'm hooked on you,
I need a fix I can't take it..
just one more hit I promise I can deal with it..
I'll handle it quickly..
till I give up..

There's nothing I could say to you ,
nothing I could ever do to make you see..
what you mean to me..
all the pain, the tears I've cryed..
I know I let you down..
but it's not like that now..
cause I will be, all that you want..
and all my life I'll be with you forever..
and get you throught teh day.
cause without you, I don't know what I do..
do you see, how much I love you?
but of couse you don't..
I mean, you don't even see me.
my feeling are invisible.
my thoughts are nothing.
I'm invisible, I'm NOTHING.
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